I have learned a LOT about myself over the summer. More than I thought I ever would.
I realized that I have a hard time letting go of the people I care about, even when sometimes it is the best thing to do.
I learned that I can accomplish anything I set my mind to.
And I learned that even the simplest things are the most memorable to me
Like getting 4 dollars worth of free food completely by accident after Midnight with Hannah
Or learning how to JetSki on the lake
Or coloring with awesome company.
I am ready to meet new people, keep up better habits, and accomplish more goals that I set for myself.
Today I am packing....a lot.
Tomorrow, I make my pilgrimage to Logan.
College, here I come! :)
Monday, August 15, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
5 more days...HOLY MOLY!
...i have 5 more days of summer...
whoa....
I have so much to do!
Im SO ready for a complete new start.
For meeting new people.
For getting something accomplished for once!
But i am sad because it won't be the same.
Nothing stays the same. I should've learned this lesson earlier in life.
But this is my one vice in life: I wish things could just magically work out how I feel they should.
I just hope this year is as fun and memorable as last year.
I met so many amazing people that changed my life and made me extremely happy.
This goes without saying, but the people I meet this year have to meet some high expectations. :P
This is it. Im ready.
USU 2011 Fall Semester: Bring. It. ON.
whoa....
I have so much to do!
Im SO ready for a complete new start.
For meeting new people.
For getting something accomplished for once!
But i am sad because it won't be the same.
Nothing stays the same. I should've learned this lesson earlier in life.
But this is my one vice in life: I wish things could just magically work out how I feel they should.
I just hope this year is as fun and memorable as last year.
I met so many amazing people that changed my life and made me extremely happy.
This goes without saying, but the people I meet this year have to meet some high expectations. :P
This is it. Im ready.
USU 2011 Fall Semester: Bring. It. ON.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Dedicated To Those Who Changed My Life This Year
To: Andrew Simpson and Kenny Fryar-Ludwig: for showing me the true strength of awesome testimonies in the Gospel.
To: Tiffany Prince and Hannah Bateman: for loving me no matter how retarded I am sometimes.
To: Sherece Bledsoe, Becca Fitzgerald, Whitni Gardner, Katie Wilson, and Kira Horton: for always being there for me and including me and making me feel special :)
To: Dylan Makemson and Brant Stanley: for those long late nights of laughing and talking and just enjoying each others' company, and for making the last semester something I will never forget.
To: Zachary Johnson, Nate Young, Derek Gines, Austin Soelburg and Grayson Layton: for always making me feel important. For always stopping me anywhere on campus just to say hi, and for always inviting me over :)
To some more of the new friends I met this year: Zach Boley, Tom Mangum, Zach Phillips, Sarah Martin, Betsy Nelson, Emily Ashcroft, and Tim Williams: For making this year just pure fun! you kids are great!
And finally, to Kason Martinez: For being an awesome example. For being there for me when no one else was. For all the long phone calls, advice, and laughs. For....everything. :)
To: Tiffany Prince and Hannah Bateman: for loving me no matter how retarded I am sometimes.
To: Sherece Bledsoe, Becca Fitzgerald, Whitni Gardner, Katie Wilson, and Kira Horton: for always being there for me and including me and making me feel special :)
To: Dylan Makemson and Brant Stanley: for those long late nights of laughing and talking and just enjoying each others' company, and for making the last semester something I will never forget.
To: Zachary Johnson, Nate Young, Derek Gines, Austin Soelburg and Grayson Layton: for always making me feel important. For always stopping me anywhere on campus just to say hi, and for always inviting me over :)
To some more of the new friends I met this year: Zach Boley, Tom Mangum, Zach Phillips, Sarah Martin, Betsy Nelson, Emily Ashcroft, and Tim Williams: For making this year just pure fun! you kids are great!
And finally, to Kason Martinez: For being an awesome example. For being there for me when no one else was. For all the long phone calls, advice, and laughs. For....everything. :)
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbour, co-worker, longest friend, lover, or even a complete stranger) but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some people move our souls to dance.
They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts,
and We are never, ever the same.
And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realised your potential, strength, willpower, or heart. Everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless. The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience help to create who you become.
Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.
Make every day count!! Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself; it will be hard for others to believe in you.
You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets..
Monday, August 1, 2011
My INSANE Bucketlist (thusfar...)
In No Particular Order:
-Run a Marathon/Triathalon
-Win a Stuffed Animal at an Amusement Park
-Get an Awesome Camera & Take Pictures of Wildlife (and get in published in an issue of the National Geographic)
-Meet a Celebrity(a member of the cast of Harry Potter, someone from one of my favorite bands, etc.)
-Conduct My Own Piece of Music
-Skydive
-Scuba Dive
-Base Jump
-Learn how to Free Climb
-Learn how to Surf
-Write a Book and Get it Published
-Ride an Elephant in Africa
-Sail a Sailboat in a Race
-Be in a Million-Viewer Hit on Youtube
-Learn How to Hip-Hop Dance Well
-Help People
-Be Healthy
i WILL do all these things before I die :)
-Run a Marathon/Triathalon
-Win a Stuffed Animal at an Amusement Park
-Get an Awesome Camera & Take Pictures of Wildlife (and get in published in an issue of the National Geographic)
-Meet a Celebrity(a member of the cast of Harry Potter, someone from one of my favorite bands, etc.)
-Conduct My Own Piece of Music
-Skydive
-Scuba Dive
-Base Jump
-Learn how to Free Climb
-Learn how to Surf
-Write a Book and Get it Published
-Ride an Elephant in Africa
-Sail a Sailboat in a Race
-Be in a Million-Viewer Hit on Youtube
-Learn How to Hip-Hop Dance Well
-Help People
-Be Healthy
i WILL do all these things before I die :)
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
People
sometimes, people surprise me.
..and not always in the way that i would like...
but, i learned that sometimes, there is nothing you can do.
after a long haul, sometimes, you have to leave it up to the other person to make a difference...
which scares me.
i want things to be at a point where i can breathe normally again.
where the situation is stress free.
where i can feel comfortable with expressing how i feel again.
will it ever get there?
...we'll see.
A fault of mine: i worry. sometimes more than is healthy.
Another fault: i hold on to memories i have with people. just the good ones, which makes it hard to let change happen.
Last fault for this blog post: i don't like it when no matter what i do, i can't find peace of mind in anything.
Welp! im done with the depressing blog post. What about you?? haha
Moral of the story: stop worrying about what other people do or say, or think really. love yourself, and the whole world will start to fall in love with you. people change, that is what life is about. and if you see someone miss out on something great, just learn from it, and make sure you don't miss out on something as great as what they missed.
..and not always in the way that i would like...
but, i learned that sometimes, there is nothing you can do.
after a long haul, sometimes, you have to leave it up to the other person to make a difference...
which scares me.
i want things to be at a point where i can breathe normally again.
where the situation is stress free.
where i can feel comfortable with expressing how i feel again.
will it ever get there?
...we'll see.
A fault of mine: i worry. sometimes more than is healthy.
Another fault: i hold on to memories i have with people. just the good ones, which makes it hard to let change happen.
Last fault for this blog post: i don't like it when no matter what i do, i can't find peace of mind in anything.
Welp! im done with the depressing blog post. What about you?? haha
Moral of the story: stop worrying about what other people do or say, or think really. love yourself, and the whole world will start to fall in love with you. people change, that is what life is about. and if you see someone miss out on something great, just learn from it, and make sure you don't miss out on something as great as what they missed.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Those Summer...NIIIIIGGGHHTTTSSSS (sung in the annoying way at stake dances)
Title: Reference to the musical Grease.
When thought about, High School Musical is in fact a regurgitated version of this fabulous musical. (Try watching Zac Efron in that light. It will never be the same.)
I am referencing Grease because I had one of the BEST date nights I have had in a long time. Here is my attempt at explaining this date in writing. Here we go!
So, to preface the date: I went with Garrett Roos. We have only met in person 3 times before our date. I had only spoken with him very seldom, but I knew he was a great kid because I went on a few dates with his best friend, Coy Cox, before he left on his mission in February. So, after getting each other's numbers about 2 weeks ago, he asked me to go on a date with him. And I accepted.
Garrett showed up around 6:30, and I was not nervous at all. He came up to the door and the first thing he said to me was: "Wow! You look great! I love our outfit and your unique sense of style. You always look great every time I see you."
First off: what a great first thing to say on a date. I knew from then that it could only get better; and it did :]
We first went on a little drive while we decided where to eat. We talked about our favorite foods, and how he loves to experiment with cooking and whatnot. He asked if I had ever had Thai food. I did. Once. Made at someone's home for a date a while back. I remembered loving it, so I agreed to go to a place called Benja's. Turns out it is a fairly expensive Thai food restaurant that usually serves important business men that are focused on setting business deals while eating their Thai. We were the only young people in the entire restaurant. It made me feel important and special :) I couldn't believe how fancy and delicious the food was! Needless to say I have a new favorite type of food :)
So, after eating and talking for a couple hours, we drove out to Tuachan, the outdoor theater her in St. George, to see the musical Grease. (hence the title reference previously stated) We showed up a little early so we could get our seats. We ended up with great tickets because his mom is a sign language interpreter. That night they had a complete section for a huge group of deaf people, and we were in the middle of it! The interpreters that were doing the sign language for the play were amazing AND hilarious. I could definitely see how deaf people could still appreciate such a wonderful musical. During the course of the show, we laughed, talked a little, and just enjoyed each other's company. It was quite lovely :) After the show got over at 11 or so, I got to meet his brother and mother that were also at the play that night. His little brother has duchenne muscular dystrophy, which means at age 12 he lost the ability to walk and his now wheelchair-bound. He was very shy, and very adorable :) I was glad I was able to meet some of his family.
After the fantastic musical, he suggested we should go get dessert, but I wasn't feelin it, so we went for a walk instead. It was quite lovely :) we spent a few more hours talking and just being with each other and enjoying one another. I absolutely loved it. We ended up on a bridge where we sat and looked at the stars and listened to the frogs and the sound of the river beneath us. It was one of the most perfect dates. I felt comfortable and special: something I haven't felt in a while.
Oh what a wonderful Summer Night :)
p.s. we mayormaynothavekissedonthebridgeattheendofthedate :]
When thought about, High School Musical is in fact a regurgitated version of this fabulous musical. (Try watching Zac Efron in that light. It will never be the same.)
I am referencing Grease because I had one of the BEST date nights I have had in a long time. Here is my attempt at explaining this date in writing. Here we go!
So, to preface the date: I went with Garrett Roos. We have only met in person 3 times before our date. I had only spoken with him very seldom, but I knew he was a great kid because I went on a few dates with his best friend, Coy Cox, before he left on his mission in February. So, after getting each other's numbers about 2 weeks ago, he asked me to go on a date with him. And I accepted.
Garrett showed up around 6:30, and I was not nervous at all. He came up to the door and the first thing he said to me was: "Wow! You look great! I love our outfit and your unique sense of style. You always look great every time I see you."
First off: what a great first thing to say on a date. I knew from then that it could only get better; and it did :]
We first went on a little drive while we decided where to eat. We talked about our favorite foods, and how he loves to experiment with cooking and whatnot. He asked if I had ever had Thai food. I did. Once. Made at someone's home for a date a while back. I remembered loving it, so I agreed to go to a place called Benja's. Turns out it is a fairly expensive Thai food restaurant that usually serves important business men that are focused on setting business deals while eating their Thai. We were the only young people in the entire restaurant. It made me feel important and special :) I couldn't believe how fancy and delicious the food was! Needless to say I have a new favorite type of food :)
So, after eating and talking for a couple hours, we drove out to Tuachan, the outdoor theater her in St. George, to see the musical Grease. (hence the title reference previously stated) We showed up a little early so we could get our seats. We ended up with great tickets because his mom is a sign language interpreter. That night they had a complete section for a huge group of deaf people, and we were in the middle of it! The interpreters that were doing the sign language for the play were amazing AND hilarious. I could definitely see how deaf people could still appreciate such a wonderful musical. During the course of the show, we laughed, talked a little, and just enjoyed each other's company. It was quite lovely :) After the show got over at 11 or so, I got to meet his brother and mother that were also at the play that night. His little brother has duchenne muscular dystrophy, which means at age 12 he lost the ability to walk and his now wheelchair-bound. He was very shy, and very adorable :) I was glad I was able to meet some of his family.
After the fantastic musical, he suggested we should go get dessert, but I wasn't feelin it, so we went for a walk instead. It was quite lovely :) we spent a few more hours talking and just being with each other and enjoying one another. I absolutely loved it. We ended up on a bridge where we sat and looked at the stars and listened to the frogs and the sound of the river beneath us. It was one of the most perfect dates. I felt comfortable and special: something I haven't felt in a while.
Oh what a wonderful Summer Night :)
p.s. we mayormaynothavekissedonthebridgeattheendofthedate :]
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Warbreaker
...is the title of my favorite book. Yes I am rereading it at the moment. I love it a lot and it gives me something do to.
But it also relates to my life currently.
Lately, I feel like I am at war with myself. I feel like I am wasting my summer away when I could be spending time with people or being productive. But I am struggling with finding ways to accomplish either of the items previously stated. I don't really have friends in St. George anymore...and finding a job was absolutely ridiculous and a waste of time. Having all of that basically getting slammed in my face hasn't really been the best motivator for me thus far.
And another thing that is really getting me down is the fact that: A. my best friend that i literally talk to every day is leaving for 2 years in 10 days... and B. my other friend that I thought would be here for me through it doesn't even talk to me anymore. I wish I knew how he was right now, and what I did to make our friendship this frustrating to the both of us. I pray every night that somehow everything will be fixed and that he will return my phone calls...
I just have felt very lonely for almost a month now. I don't like it. I try and fight it. Most of the time it doesn't work.
But this week will be a great week. Wanna know why?
1. Hannah is back in the U.S. FINALLY. i miss her face and errrything so we are going to do a TON of catching up and partying. heck yes. :]
2. I get my longboard this week. Freakin stoked. :]
3. I get to hopefully see Kason and his family this Saturday before he leaves on his mission! Maybe I'll finally get the picture of us that I have always wanted and he has avoided in order to win a bet. Well the bet is over now kid. I WILL get that picture. End of story.
4. I am tired of being sad, so I am going to make this week great, no matter what :]
The 'Warbreaker' that ultimately decides when the war with myself is over?
Me. I decide when to be happy again. I decide what to do with my life. And I am finally deciding to make my summer what I want it to be. :]
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